Im feeling super vexed right now. When u're feeling frustrated. Things don't get any better.
Vex Issue #1
Today, i woke up at 12pm. My house was empty. Called Cassie Sis. She din pick up. I told her on msn to gimme a call urgently. But instead of calling she replied back "Why?" As an offline message when i went offline to brush up. Luckily i came back to c msn. If i din. I would've waited till i die she still won't call. Then she'll say "U din gimme a reason y i mus call u mah." Ppl already say urgent rite? Tt totally spoilt my day. Piss me off SO BAD.
So after that i gave larry a call. Jio him for lunch, meepok. The usual. He directly gave me an "ON." answer. It feels so much better to have friends who r so on? I mean..it feels great to have friends who r so on. It gets infuriating when ppl delays certain Can/cannot, yes/no issues for the whole day and in the end say "OH sorry ar i cannot make it/ dun feel like la" Its not only a huge dissapointment, it gets ppl mad too. Imagine what other stuff i could've done and who else i could've asked during the time where u took so long to answer a simple yes or no qns? Especially if its like last minute u say u DUN FEEL like going. Thats y, for some reason, i quite hate last minute questions. Like outing n stuff. For once, i understand the importance of planning.
While at there had 2 bowls of meepok and some time catching up. Laughter n stuff. Cheered me up abit.
Vex Issue #2
After eating, went to Larry's house. My mom sud called and told me she goin to pick me up for lunch. But later she asked me to go down myself to Punggol to wait for her, while im at Bedok. FYI, Bedok to Punggol by train is roughly 80mins? Its like.R u nuts? That was when i knew i had to do something to escape this shit. Then I came up with an excuse. "Excuse" is jus to make me feel better. If u look at it at other point of view. Its "Then i came up with a lie." I dun usually lie. I mean those serious ones. I told my mom. My friend was treating me n some of my sec sch mates for movie so i'll reach quite late. My God-dad gav me some trashing advice saying i should not ask ppl to treat me n stuff when i've the capability and blah blah blah. Then i said okay lor. I pay for myself. Then he asked so do u have money? Then i say ya. Then he said if u hav money can u pay for the bill? He is indirectly implying that i should not go. Because I should not let ppl treat me, however i've the money, but, i don't have the money to pay for the fone bill and that i should SAVE the money and not spend it on the movie. Beat arnd the bush tactic. Usually i'll say ok i wun go then. However, being already vexed i already was + the earful + the lame mind game tactic. I had to say something back. So i jus told him...So u're implying i should not go isit? Just say so. Then i don't go liao. Instead of jus agreeing that what i said was what he wanted he said "No. I din mean that. Im jus telling u these stuff for reference. U r old enuff to decide for urself already. Its up to u." Lol..he jus wan me to 'qing kou' say that i dun wan go n shit. But i jus told him okay then i'll go for the movie.
However, i did not go for any movie or what. I jus stayed in Larry's hse to play gunz. When it was abou 7pm, Granny called me to come over her hse for dinner, coz i told her to cook my share Its simple Chai Poh Omelette and Minced meat mushroom in dark sauce with porridge. Its really a simple meal. But it tastes really good. Its like..I tink the effort u put in enhances the taste? I really love my granny home cook food.
While i was eating with her. I felt..really bad..its like this guilty conscience thing. I did not go for any movie or what. I jus told a lie to my mom. And..and..being her child, she readily trusted me. It felt horrible. Its like..i am betraying the trust my mum put in me. Then my granny told me that jus now before i came she called my mom and asked where i was, my mom jus told her that i went for a movie. When i heard it, it adds on to the conscience. I felt even worse. I don't tear so easily but i felt my heart abit queasy. I couldn't take it anymore so i jus told my granny what i did. Being the wonderful granny. She jus kinda gav me some comfort by telling me that i had my reason to lie n i shouldn't do it nex time. I promise i won't again. The weight on my shoulders felt much lifted. But it was still there whenever i tot about it.
Jus now had a tok to Zii over the fone. She was going bac from KL to her home. We were smsing then she asked those..sad qns..like..aiya..sad jiu shi le. I dunno how to ans it. Really. And im not really in the mood to handle this kinda qns too. But later on i jus..called her lah. Ignore the bills, a short while won't kill. Reading the sms, had this feeling she was about to tear. I was right. Im really at a lost of words when ppl cry. Seriously. Its like..no words can comfort. No matter how much u say, they'll tell u "its no use." I really dunno what to say. N moreover, while i was talking to her. My heart was still feeling freaking queasy. I could like..jus..blow up. I lun n lun..then she was crying. Hearing sniffs hurts. ~.~ Then i tink the reception cut us off. I din wanna call back. Im sorry Zii. I rather have u angry wif me than for me to blow up at u.
I tried to audi to forget about everything but it doesn't help. Being totally off-form oso pisses me off. Banged my head on the wall by accident. Got even more pissed. I dunno. I doubt i can even slp with such mixed emotions.
Damn it.
Vex Issue #1
Today, i woke up at 12pm. My house was empty. Called Cassie Sis. She din pick up. I told her on msn to gimme a call urgently. But instead of calling she replied back "Why?" As an offline message when i went offline to brush up. Luckily i came back to c msn. If i din. I would've waited till i die she still won't call. Then she'll say "U din gimme a reason y i mus call u mah." Ppl already say urgent rite? Tt totally spoilt my day. Piss me off SO BAD.
So after that i gave larry a call. Jio him for lunch, meepok. The usual. He directly gave me an "ON." answer. It feels so much better to have friends who r so on? I mean..it feels great to have friends who r so on. It gets infuriating when ppl delays certain Can/cannot, yes/no issues for the whole day and in the end say "OH sorry ar i cannot make it/ dun feel like la" Its not only a huge dissapointment, it gets ppl mad too. Imagine what other stuff i could've done and who else i could've asked during the time where u took so long to answer a simple yes or no qns? Especially if its like last minute u say u DUN FEEL like going. Thats y, for some reason, i quite hate last minute questions. Like outing n stuff. For once, i understand the importance of planning.
While at there had 2 bowls of meepok and some time catching up. Laughter n stuff. Cheered me up abit.
Vex Issue #2
After eating, went to Larry's house. My mom sud called and told me she goin to pick me up for lunch. But later she asked me to go down myself to Punggol to wait for her, while im at Bedok. FYI, Bedok to Punggol by train is roughly 80mins? Its like.R u nuts? That was when i knew i had to do something to escape this shit. Then I came up with an excuse. "Excuse" is jus to make me feel better. If u look at it at other point of view. Its "Then i came up with a lie." I dun usually lie. I mean those serious ones. I told my mom. My friend was treating me n some of my sec sch mates for movie so i'll reach quite late. My God-dad gav me some trashing advice saying i should not ask ppl to treat me n stuff when i've the capability and blah blah blah. Then i said okay lor. I pay for myself. Then he asked so do u have money? Then i say ya. Then he said if u hav money can u pay for the bill? He is indirectly implying that i should not go. Because I should not let ppl treat me, however i've the money, but, i don't have the money to pay for the fone bill and that i should SAVE the money and not spend it on the movie. Beat arnd the bush tactic. Usually i'll say ok i wun go then. However, being already vexed i already was + the earful + the lame mind game tactic. I had to say something back. So i jus told him...So u're implying i should not go isit? Just say so. Then i don't go liao. Instead of jus agreeing that what i said was what he wanted he said "No. I din mean that. Im jus telling u these stuff for reference. U r old enuff to decide for urself already. Its up to u." Lol..he jus wan me to 'qing kou' say that i dun wan go n shit. But i jus told him okay then i'll go for the movie.
However, i did not go for any movie or what. I jus stayed in Larry's hse to play gunz. When it was abou 7pm, Granny called me to come over her hse for dinner, coz i told her to cook my share Its simple Chai Poh Omelette and Minced meat mushroom in dark sauce with porridge. Its really a simple meal. But it tastes really good. Its like..I tink the effort u put in enhances the taste? I really love my granny home cook food.
While i was eating with her. I felt..really bad..its like this guilty conscience thing. I did not go for any movie or what. I jus told a lie to my mom. And..and..being her child, she readily trusted me. It felt horrible. Its like..i am betraying the trust my mum put in me. Then my granny told me that jus now before i came she called my mom and asked where i was, my mom jus told her that i went for a movie. When i heard it, it adds on to the conscience. I felt even worse. I don't tear so easily but i felt my heart abit queasy. I couldn't take it anymore so i jus told my granny what i did. Being the wonderful granny. She jus kinda gav me some comfort by telling me that i had my reason to lie n i shouldn't do it nex time. I promise i won't again. The weight on my shoulders felt much lifted. But it was still there whenever i tot about it.
Jus now had a tok to Zii over the fone. She was going bac from KL to her home. We were smsing then she asked those..sad qns..like..aiya..sad jiu shi le. I dunno how to ans it. Really. And im not really in the mood to handle this kinda qns too. But later on i jus..called her lah. Ignore the bills, a short while won't kill. Reading the sms, had this feeling she was about to tear. I was right. Im really at a lost of words when ppl cry. Seriously. Its like..no words can comfort. No matter how much u say, they'll tell u "its no use." I really dunno what to say. N moreover, while i was talking to her. My heart was still feeling freaking queasy. I could like..jus..blow up. I lun n lun..then she was crying. Hearing sniffs hurts. ~.~ Then i tink the reception cut us off. I din wanna call back. Im sorry Zii. I rather have u angry wif me than for me to blow up at u.
I tried to audi to forget about everything but it doesn't help. Being totally off-form oso pisses me off. Banged my head on the wall by accident. Got even more pissed. I dunno. I doubt i can even slp with such mixed emotions.
Damn it.
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