When Life is a Bore..

When Life is a bore...

I had a hectic week.

I blame it on myself laziness for making this week hectic for me, myself.
I blame it on my own stupidity which makes me infuriated when I'm doing knowledgeable works.
I blame on my lack of experience to make simple task so difficult for me.
I blame no one else. But me.

Seriously, thinking back about the words that was preached the other day. It does make sense. ( I mean obviously it does make sense..duh~ but as in...when u think about it during deep thoughts...) He said: "Try not to find an excuse and blame others. But look at yourself."

It really struck me that people will go around saying..."ITS ALL YOUR FAULT!" If u're looking at it from the spectator's point of view. U'll tell urself.. "damn..this guy/girl really needs to grow up!" But...don't u find that u're doing the same? Of course u don't go "ITS YOUR FAULT!" but mayb..indirectly implying the same meaning.

Recently, CNY is fast approaching. Mom is busy trying to tidy all the rubbish she bought over last year. She has this bad spending habit. Its going overboard. But my mom and dad don't communicate well. Thus, I'm sandwiched between. Whenever one party does sth to piss e other party off, that party will pick on me instead. Like "WHY YOU LEAVE THE POTS N PANS UNWASHED AFTER COOKING?!" (Its not me who cook. I don't like dirty environments. I always wash everything before and after using.) "WHY BUY SO MANY AND LEAVE ALL OVER THE HOUSE?!" (I don't have money to buy stuffs. Not when i only have 19 dollars in my bank.)

Just last friday, i was over at grannie's hse cause my aunts n mom wanted to have a game of mahjong. While i was there, dad called and shouted to me "WHERE T HELL DID YOU TAKE MY DICTIONARY TO?" promptly i replied "WHY WOULD I TAKE YOUR DICTIONARY? I DON'T USE DICTIONARY? I CAN GO TO DICTIONARY.COM." then my dad JUST HAD to find something to shout about me. (so does my mom anyway.) he then said "WHY U BRING UR LAPTOP GO GRAN HSE FOR WAT?" then i jus told him "u're talking about the dictionary. Don't switch topic. Maybe its somewhere in the study room or your rm. No one touched ur dictionary." Then he gave a pause n jus hung up the fone.

Kinda erks me that...my parents have such short temper. Its like...they only care about their stuffs..and when something gets lost, they flare up. If u happen to stand in their path, u'll get it for no reason..they'll FIND a reason to pick on you. But when I lost my stuff, i don't like BLAME them for taking my stuff. I don't. I'll jus ask where is my blah blah blah.. then my parents will jus look at me n say "HOW I KNOW WHO TAKE UR STUFF?" they'll jus raise they voice at me. Its retarded. I don't see the logic.

People say their kids follow after their parents. But...not trying to boast, I'm smart enough to see what not to, and to follow. The kind of attitude. I don't really buy that. Proudly, i can say, Im only picking up their pros. Not their cons. But...of course, i too, have a short temper. Trying to control it nevertheless. I don't noe what to talk about them anymore. Theres just too much to say. I don't want to bore you ppl anymore..otherwise this might be the last time u'll be typeing my blog address. Haha.

This is just..a totally random post. I had to let of steam somewhere right? Begae helps me let of steam too ^-^

Tests are coming. I hardly studied. Mom called me an idiot loser for not opening up my books. Watever mom. Not like u got 12 points anyway. She compared me with my god-cousins. One who is naturally smart n scored higher than me n another who is..quite competitive against me but i had no intention of competiting with her..but i pwned her in all aspects. I really don't give 2 hoots whatever my mom is saying. Shes never satisfied with whatever i do..So i don't really bother telling my results to her. Bad or good. Its still SHIT ASS BAD for her. I had a 84 for FM test e other time. But i see no point telling her.. She'll probably be like. "So? one only what." or "Probably ur only 80+" or "People can get 99, u only get 84. Lousy." Shes a totally turn off for all sources of encouragement i swear. At least Im glad not everyone is like her. Aunt Bernice told me my mom doesn't know how to express herself. Anyway..i don't give a shit.

Mom, I don't hate u anyway. U're still my mom nevertheless. But seriously..your attitude stinks! But...sigh -.- all moms are like that right?

Honor Your Parents. (I'll always tell this to myself.)

Begae keeps my life from being a bore.